I'm at it again :(

Perhaps i should isolate myself? But i know it wouldn't work.

More friends (and acquaintances) know of my race in May. There is this assumption that i "imagined" - many are watching hence i can't fail. I kept thinking, "What if i fail?". There is even this premonition that popped out from nowhere that i'm not gonna complete it. This is not the 1st time such negativity crossed my mind and it won't be the last til i complete & cross the finish line.

To fight such thoughts, i try hard to think back what Joanne told me during one of our impromptu night runs at ECP - People would only wish us success. No one (in his/her right mind) would hope that we'll fail. Of cos, I perfectly recognise that "i can't fail cos pple are watching" expectation is one i imposed on myself. In the 1st place, i shouldn't even be concerned what others think. Afterall, they din pay for my race...hahahhah.

No one would set out to do smtg & plan to fail it. Tsk tsk tsk. I'm darn paranoid & i ought to focus on my preparation instead! Worrying won't get me anywhere.