Somebody

I want somebody to share
The rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return she'll get my support
...

Depeche Mode - Somebody

Silly me somehow remembered this song as a sad one. And only recently then i realized that it's totally not. Perhaps the last i recalled listening to this song (in full) was at some MS pub, with Andy and both of us were feeling somewhat lovelorn. Now on retrospect, i feel amused. He said by the turn of 30, we would marry each other if both are still single. It was those growing-up years.

About 2 years ago, Friend A accepted Friend B's pursuit. Many friends were shocked. Currently, they are still together but i'm not sure if A is in love with B by now. Signs are showing that he's getting used to her but in love? I dunno. It's not my business. Pardon me, i'm most probably being nosey here (altho concerned is a more popular expression used by some friends).

Not all of us are blessed to find that somebody who loves us as much as we do. Certain relationships are one-sided. If so, i wonder can love develop over time? Or does it eventually evolve out of loneliness, a fear of being by oneself?

To some extent, I respect B's perseverance to go after her love and latterly winning A's "heart" (with A's love interest being another at that time & maybe even all this while...which i really hope not). While I'm not confident of doing the same. i'm dead clear i can't handle the paranoia that comes with it...the uncertainty if his heart still beats for the other and having to guess for as long as i'm in the r/s if he's truly in love with me. Personally, i find it a misery to be with someone yet feel lonely.

Love - the 4-letter word that is simplistically intricate (or intricately simple?).