Saturday, February 21, 2009

没有什么比昨天更远,比明天更近

Supposed to do a long walk this morning at 10am. When i woke up, i felt sick...body aching and stuff. Must be yesterday's pigout session. 5 of us ate cockles, la-la, vege, sting-ray, sotong, mee+beehoon goreng, satay+ketupat & chicken wings. Haven't eaten so much junk (all at once) in a long while.

I tot sleeping in wld help but it didn't :( My body was still aching at 3pm that i can't even join Liheng & gang at BT. Furthermore, it begun pouring at 2pm. Hence, i stayed at home, watched tv & surfed net.

Occasional "stay-in"s aren't so bad. The tv was showing a travel show hosted by 郭亮, set in Tibet. My eyes were fixated on my laptop more than the tv when smtg he said, caught my attn - 没有什么比昨天更远,比明天更近. I tot that was enlightening! Constant reminders like that do me well cos i like to dig into my memory bank.

I also chanced upon a website while looking for info on Medishield. The blogger happens to know PG & Esther too! Altho, the blog genre is inclined to personal financial management & money-making, the writing style is rather motivating. One particular sentence, "If I have 6 hours to chop a tree, I will spend 4 hours sharpening the axe. This is where I will invest my 4 hours in."

Hmmm...i need to put in more efforts on my training in order to "chop my tree" with better ease.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Sand Dunes at Home

I spotted sand dunes at Jurong while running home last evening!

And it says "Danger, keep out!". Hehehhe :P




Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Tim's Chocolate Mission

Kcal 310 Fat 17.g Fat(sats) 12.2g Carbs 34.3g

I found a website on chocolate reviews! Woah...this guy is really nuts over chocolates.

Chanced upon this link when i was searching for the nutrition facts of the Cadbury Boost bar i took b4 my run just now. Now i can reference to this website to maximise my calorie intake :)

Ups
It filled me up for 2 hours
Easily digested
Did not give me any post-consumption pukey feeling.
Best of all, Cheers is selling it at $1 only! Hahah..times are bad so i gotta save on all these trg snacks. The rest of the chocolates are selling at $1.80 at least.

Downside of this bar - it melts easily. The 1st time I tried this bar, it was deformed after a while in my pack (under the sun).

Sunday, February 15, 2009

《十分愛》

Caught this movie on Channel 8 just now. The piano piece was beautiful. Then i realised the actor was the singer 張敬軒!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

My Little Seed

There was a time I used to adore marathoners…the secret admiration kind.

I remember asking this American colleague who came over to Singapore about his marathon experience. He replied my enthusiasm in a casual resonance, saying, “If you could do a half, you can do a full.” Back then, completing a full marathon felt a little inconceivable (although I was very comfortable with half-s).

2 years later, I finally did my 42km. It’s one thing I WILL regret if I never did it. And i realise why that colleague was so cool - it's an achievable feat with labor.

In the course of our life, there are many seeds planted in our hearts – things that we wish to do. It could be a bungee jump, a backpacking trip or even doing a catwalk on the model runway. However, making that first step is often tougher than expected. Not that it takes tremendous efforts to do so. I reckon most of us are prone to spending each day as it comes and along the way, these little seeds are forgotten.

I never thought I would be this active – all the running, trekking, climbing & adventure races. In fact, I can still recall the trauma I went through during my first Ophir trek. A sms to attend church, then a nonchalant decision to trek Tahan opened my life to a totally different chapter…befriending many great pals is the precious gift of all

Things happen for a reason. I’m not a person who dreams big. The coming event isn’t something I have been planning for a long time. But it is the consequence of a seed.

But if you don’t dream big, what’s the use in dreaming. If you don’t have faith, there’s nothing worth believing. It takes one hope to make the stars worth reaching for. So reach out, for something more

Taken from the lyrics of “Dream Big” by David Cook

Friday, February 6, 2009

I am ironic

When the rest completed theirs, i tot with some regrets, "I should have gone ahead & not think so much."

When the next event date is finalized, i had reservations..."Should i go?".

When i finally mustered up enough courage to register, i hesitated..."Still got time to reconsider before i pay up."

When my name was removed from the list (cos whoever pay will get the slot), i went..."shucks, i'd better pay first to secure my slot."

When i paid the deposit, i was thinking..."how? Next would be the remaining pmt + airfare". I feared retrenchment & was concerned how i was gg to pay off the debts if i don't have a job.

When financial help came & the remaining fee was taken care of, i wondered...with some excitement,"It's gonna be real!"

When the excitement gradually settle, doubts set in. And this is now.

My brain is filled with doubts and lots of "what-if-i-can't-make-it"s. All these negative thoughts are sirening in my head. Why am i so bothered? Well...mostly due to the cut-off times. The rest of the worries would be my health condition & whether am i able to take the heat, the extreme distance, the unknown terrain & the solitude? I, for one, am neither an optimist or confident person. I do not know if i can accept the failure, how i am gg to handle my friends' consolations. etc etc.

Yesterday, I bought a book to note my feelings, thots and prep prior to the race. It has the word "FAITH" and an encouraging verse inside. Today, an ignorant accquaintance gotta dampen that inspiration with some dumb response in FB. Darn! A totally uncalled-for remark.

I know it's not Everest that i am going to. However, it's a feat of a lifetime to me...one that i am going by myself...MY own Everest.